And if I smile today, will you still see her when tomorrow I cry?

"I'm going to take you to the stars and show you the world."

I have frequent nightmares but when a dream breaks between, some are so beautiful I want to cry. I saw a face I've missed, the way I remember us, not the way we've become. It was back when he let me in and wanted to show me everything. It wasn't that long ago and was such a short time that I wish I was back there so I wouldn't have to cry. Suppose I deserve it, for the selfish side I released when rejected. A tantrum of depression when he didn't want me anymore. How could he forgive me for that? Perhaps it's a lesson I must be taught as I scramble helplessly to hold on to my least known but most cherished friend. How pathetic is it really? Don't we all try to hold on to the dreams we desire to be in? Don't we all try to fall back to sleep? Is it too selfish to hold on to just a tiny piece of a chance I never really had? Too selfish to cling to someone who gave me one shining moment in the sun? What I want from this world, he will never give me. But I never throw a whole life away, a whole friend just because one vain moment came between us and left a scar. I fell in love. Or perhaps I was wrong, perhaps I fell in love with an idea, someone who didn't really exist. I fell in love with the idea of us, together. Two strangers finding each other, finding the world. It was romantic to me, but was not the dream he wanted to be.

What Happens?

What happens to a soul when it's been stabbed too many times? Does it rot? Does it fade? Or does it bleed itself dry? What happens to the unrequited lover left behind? What happens when time destroys the mind? What happens when you get too close and pull away? What happens when walls are erected between once truthful friends? But were they true? Only time will tell what is to become of the broken up pieces of the shining sun.